Saif Bacall

I miss you so much!! love you

I can't believe i'm writting to you through a computer instead of talking to you face to face. I won't even question why you left us because all of those questions have been answered. I wish I never had to see my best friend your wife Jennifer have to go through all this. How do I confort her when all she ever needed was your shoulder to cry on. Your kiss to make her glow. Your arms to hold her when she's in need of a hug or just because, who could give her all those no one will ever replace you or make her feel the way you did. The kids are so different without their best friend around. They don't know how to act because to all of this is such a nightmare. I wish I could close my eyes and open them and you'll be right there sitting on the couch next to Jen making jokes about how me and Jen should work and you and Jimmy sit at home and watch the kids. You are not gone you are here with us all of us especially Jen. Just the other day you proved to her that you are with her when you came in my dream you were at the gas station I walked in you were standing behind the counter and you yelled at me and told me " go tell Jen I said yes" Go now tell her I said yes" and I walked out of the station and woke up from my dream. I got on the phone and asked Jen if she had been asking you anything and she said yes " I wanted to know if he was with  me and the kids?" and now that you proved that to her she is stronger and she is doing what you want her to do because she knows you are smiling down from having and saying " thats my girl being stronger then ever".

The last time when we went out we had the time of our life just the four of us doing 120 on the highway bumping Justine Bieber "Baby" and me and Jen were laughing because of how fast you were going. Lil Jeff misses you and he thinks your brother Samar is you. Everytime he walks through the door he thinks it's you and he goes and gives him kisses. We miss u Saify forever we love you and memories will stay in our hearts for when we want to remember you we will remember the good and not the bad. Miss u Saify love u always and forever xoxo

To my Daddy:

Daddy I love it when you play basketball together it always reminds me when we were together everytime you made a shot you used to always shout and you filled my heart with joy. Daddy I know your in heaven smiling down don't worry i'm gonna show you around. The next day you past away I slept in your bed I smelled your sent and cried in my head. You whispered in my ear " stop crying baby boy" then I remember my daddy was my boy. Daddy don't worry Hazem has his day. He won't even make it up to the sky. I know you were mad and sad but don't worry your still the king of our family. But don't worry daddy I gotcha back I will be the king of the family just like you. I love you daddy always in my heart.

 

My Daddy:

Daddy I know you love soccer I know you love me. All there is now are memories I just can't see. I wish Hazem went in your store and killed me. I know you don't like it but this is our family. I know you are in heaven but just wait and see Hazem will die in misery. Daddy I know you are in heaven smiling down just wait for me I'll see you around. Daddy I feel like you are still here whispering in my ear laying in the bed of fear. I love you daddy your number #1 no matter what you are my daddy forever in my heart.

May God rest his soul. Nobody deserves this. I feel hirrible for his children, his wife..anyone who knew him. There is a lot of pressure on our men to take care of their families. Who'd think working hard to provide could cost a life? In the end, 3 children will never see their father again. My heart bleeds for the family. May God help them through this tragety. No child should expereince the loss of their parent. What a great loss in so many ways. RIP Saif.